NekoRave

Again thanks to everyone whos been kind and supportive. I'll be on PSN still doing my thing, I just have had a huge influx of people consistently putting me down for not having enough completions, owning too many games, people think I spend money on games to pop one trophy and never play it again, that my completion percentage is too low, and at first I blew off what people said, but I have had since 2015 a gradual crowd of hate flooding my way.

I know I can ignore block or whatever, but it really saddens me that my options are to constantly filter out people who don't know me and openly want to put me down, that's not even considering the incredible amount of people who silently support and agree with them (you know the ones who would upvote said comments)

Like I didn't join the site to be treated as if I'm a hoarder, not a gamer, etc.

I've done a Xmas giveaway for example and even some of the people who wanted shit from me would still turn around and say shit like this.

I've helped people with suggestions of what games to turn online, helped even do a guide for some game, I've done my part to contribute and try to belong positively to the site.

So it hurts that I'd leave that part behind, but to be honest there's just too much negativity in this hobby.

I'm a video game collector, I love to play games, instead of my collection having any admiration it's resorted into a way people can target me on a personal level and attempt to bring me down.

And if it was 20 people fine whatever, but I have had at least 700+ messages from people (not just on the site) across all the various sites/ direct psn messages.

I just don't feel like I deserve this treatment.

It's affected me sub consciously, I can barely game when I lose at a simple boss because I'm now starting to believe what people are saying that I'm not a gamer, that my accomplishments are not enough, that I am a hoarder, that everything I've done doesn't mean shit.

I don't know why I got so much hate in the first place, but this has me very depressed to the point where it's killed off a lot of my drive to even game or socialize about my gaming accomplishments.

I left my own discord, I left fb, I left psnp, I took everything off, everything down just so I don't hear that shit anymore.

If that doesn't say how I feel about hearing that shit I don't know what will.

And if people who are reading this that contributed to me leave, I hope this is what you guys wanted man, I've literally got so broken down that I barely want to game anymore.

So anyways hope that the people who are supportive read this and understand that you can only take so much harassment before it's enough to go.

I'm going to be on PSN if people want to add me or message, and this is a genuine goodbye from me to everyone

Damn, I knew every community had toxic people, but, wow, what you said is too much.

Being a gamer, or simply enjoying playing games doesn't mean you've to buy one and complete it, or complete all the games you own/will own. Like drawing, listening to music, reading, etc, videogaming is just a hobby and no one should be attacked for not being a completionist or stuff like that.

I know my comment will not change things that much, but remember that you're just having fun while playing games. After all, that is what they were created for. Keep on dying against the enemies, bosses, retrying and having fun while doing so.

Sometimes people don't know how much power their words hold. Even after making someone do something horrible, they still think it's not their fault.

Sorry to hear you're leaving man, and even though I don't know you, I wish you the best of lucks

Sucks to hear man, I enjoyed seeing you on the 'recent players' list of the odd Indie games I pick up and think no one else is playing. Bummer to hear it's because of other people as well, but hopefully it'll be just a bit of a break? A mental vacation can do the body good. Best of luck, love. Hopefully I'll catch you around on PSN or something.