Status Updates posted by JayDeLosDioses
I've struggled to motivate myself the last few days and I couldn't figure out why.
But then I've decided to do somehting radical and burn some bridges, getting rid of some people. Maybe it was just out of desperation, but it actually helped me, so I think I did the right move. Tbh I feel a bit stupid that I didn't realised earlier that all these "friends" came after a certain point in my life.
So that means that I'm looking for some new people to have a nice chat with, or play games or whatever comes to mind. If you wanna chat hit me up, if you wanna play some games feel free to add me 😇
It´s my first status update, but it´s gonna be a longer one.
So if you don´t like longer texts or personal stories please avoid the spoiler
I´m not looking for attention, I just need to get some things off my chest.Spoiler
I´ve learned this wednesday that my girlfriend passed away while I was on vacation...
I was trying to figure out how to deal best with it, and because I don´t have anyone to talk about such things, I´m "talking" to my favourite community.
Otherwise my head is going to explode.
You may ask why I don´t have anyone to talk?
Because my relationship with my family is broken since I´ve got together with this girl.
They never liked her, or her family, they even made fun of her and such things, so I had to choose a side, and I did.
And my friendlist is pretty short, you may ask why again.
Because I nearly died when I was born, and was "lucky" to get away with permanent brain damage and weak af muscles.
Funnily enough I still skipped 3 grades of regular school, and finished with a solid 1,3 average (1 is the highest grade in germany)
The girl who died was the only person I can remember who never bullied me during breaks or on my way home, she was my only friend all those years.
She helped me together with her dad and my uncle to get into gaming. With her help and playing videogames I managed to get the "delay" I had in my brain from 3 seconds til my muscles would to what my brain told them, down to sub 1.
You may wonder now why my parents would hate a girl who helped me so much?
It´s simple... her family and drugs, but mostly drugs.
Her dad works in a pretty high position at Bosch (you may heard about them), was never at home and gave her all the things she could dream off. And if he didn´t bought it, his credit card did.
We came together when she was already addicted to this shit, but my parents never understood a thing.
They made fun of her, she wasn´t allowed to visit us at home and I wasn´t allowed to go to her.
They tried everything to ruin my relationship...
But long story short.
I came back from my trip, my dad picked me up from the airport, gave me 2 games and said it´s to get me distracted.
He didn´t told me why, and when I tried to call my girlfriend her mother picked up and told me everything.
My world is ruined atm, but I´m trying to keep my thoughts clean.
Again sorry for posting such a long text.
But I actually feel a bit better now.