Popular Post ninjagirl657 Posted November 15, 2021 Popular Post Share Posted November 15, 2021 I know this is a bit unorthodox to post this in the forum, but I feel this is the best place and the safe place I can post this, I guess I feel comfortable posting here and I don't do social media. maybe it could be sticky post at some point in memory. Please excuse my writing, I have dyslexia and I am writing this as I am crying. I lost my dog Crystal (brown dog, pink collar) on Friday the 12th of November 2021. She was born on the 1st December 2013 and passed on the 12th November 2021 (7 yrs 3/4), she was a Great Dane cross with an Rottweiler, a very rare breed and my best friend, my world, my everything. Since I had her, she has got me though my darkest time, I was full blown suicidal before she arrived in my life and she loved everyone she met, you would always be met with a wagging tail and soppy kisses when she saw you and her bounciness in life was a big joy. Two years ago she gave birth to three beautiful puppies in August 2019, the dad is a Labrador. Back in September 2021 she met her daughter Red, as you can see in the picture, Red is the black Labrador/Great Dane in the background and the smiling brown dog is my baby. This was the first & last time she saw her daughter, running around with her, like they never left. My heart is so broken, that I am so lost without her, I have no purpose in life now, as she was the one who got me out everyday and gave me a reason to live, she got me through the pandemic and I was never alone, she always had food and water down, treats available at all times, even when she gave me those soppy eyes and would claw at me, if I was playing my games, so I would stop playing and give her attention, gravy bones, dental stick or whatever treat she wanted. My last game was Assassin Creed Odyssey and my last platinum, I can't bring myself to 100% the game as the final trophy was earned on the 10th November. I love gaming these past 34+ years and have been trophy hunting for the past 4 years, while I have enjoyed every minute of trophy hunting, writing guides to help people, without my dog I don't feel I have a reason to trophy hunt anymore. I have decided to quit as of Saturday and just game when I am ready, but not care about the trophies. I guess I have suffered so much pain and loss in my life, more then anyone could know and realize their is more important things in life then trophies. I was only trophy hunting for fun and to test my skills and to help me not feel suicidal. But now she's gone and now I don't see there is any point in chasing trophies. At the end of the day it's just a trophy, we are only trying to prove we could obtain them and to some degree rub our ego. I never cared for leaderboards, I don't care if you have 100 Raitakia games on your profile, to me that is what you enjoyed and I respect that as an gamer and a veteran gamer. I may get hate for this, but I find it disgusting how people who moan/complain or downright mock people profile because of it. I won't mention the name, as you know who I am talking about who shat at people and say 90% of people's profile are crap, I disagree with that and have zero respect for this person and also because they mock me when I was suicidal on SFV forum post I made last year or so. I did want to report it, but couldn't at the time due to being suicidal at that point. I respect people who play what they want and by god I can't do 5 minute or even visual novels, as they are too short, but I respect those who do. (sorry if sound bad, I needed to get it off my chest, as it's been eating at me for years) But this thread is not about what you play and what you don't, I made this post to remember by dog Crystal and for anyone else who have lost a pet, that maybe this could help. I may stay around and post now and again, but I guess I wanted to say that there is more important things in life, I have Borderline Personality Disorder (EUPD) so the pain I feel is ten times worst then normal people would feel. I lost my best friend, my baby and when she died in my arms on are last walk at 3pm on Friday, it was the most devasting thing I have witness. She died peacefully in my arms, when nature took her course and her heart went out. It was quick and painless and I wished I could have done more, I feel I could of saved her life somehow, I have always put other people life before my own and this is the part that hurts the most. I feel useless I didn't know she was going to go, she held on for as long as she could and I am eternally grateful for that. She had a heart scan this year and she had arthritis and tissue on the left ventricle of her heart. I would of gave my life for hers or anyone at the risk of my own. If I died saving someone's life, I would of died with honour and the knowing I save a life, which is the way I want to go. I don't want recognition, I am no heroine, I am just the type of person who is willing to risk there life for other people, without caring for my own. Sometimes you never know what you have got, until they are gone. I only spent 4-6 hrs a night on my games and I guess I finally learnt the true meaning of life, my dog gave me that reason to live, gave me a reason to get out of bed every morning to take her for a walk, in the afternoon I would walk her and then when I got back I would play on my games, I found a lot of them easy, maybe due to age and experience. But then I knew she would always be there for me, unconditional love, a waggy tail and kisses when I walked in, I will never forget the memories I had with her and will be picking her ashes in 2 weeks time, with the embodied box, with her name and the date she was born to day she pass away. Treasure the family, friends, pets you got in your life, live every day as it's your last day in life and always remember what you have got. maybe reflect at your life and think is trophy hunting really that important or could you just cut it down and enjoy living your life with the people around you. I would normally have some words of wisdom, some nugget that would help people to see better and to give advise that will help guide them on there path and I would disappear away, as my only purpose was to guide other people in life and when they no longer need my help or guidance, I would disappear in the shadows. If you do decide to trophy hunt still, don't give up on those hard games, think logically and enjoy what your doing. Know when to stop and to enjoy life, getting the platinum is not as important as you may think. I earned 58 (technically 57 if you don't count spider-man remastered) but I enjoyed every minute of it. Fighting games are hard, but don't give up on trying, as they are alot of fun, especially when you get that magic pixel and 50/50 fight. I've Been a part of FGC since it formed in the 90's and Daigo Umehera is someone I look up to alot and will still play them now. Sorry for the long post and it I went off tangent, I hope it was clear and helpful in some way. Thank you for reading my post. R.I.P. Crystal 1st Dec 2013 - 12th Nov 2021. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HuntingFever Posted November 15, 2021 Share Posted November 15, 2021 (edited) I know how you feel . I can't finish FF7 for the same reason - I had 2 rabbits a few years back and one of them was put to sleep on the day I last played FF7 so can't bring myself to make any progress in it because of the unhappy memories it brings back . A year later almost to the day, I lost my other rabbit . I've had several pets over the years, some of which died of natural causes but others came down with serious medical problems so had to be put to sleep to prevent unnecessary suffering. Edited November 15, 2021 by HuntingFever Update. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kinnyman Posted November 15, 2021 Share Posted November 15, 2021 (edited) Sorry for your loss. Great pets like Crystal are great friends for us. I wouldn't blame yourself. A bigger breed like that with a heart condition is tough to overcome. It may be the last thing you want to hear right now, but it may have been for the better. I've had pits that get older and develop hip displacement issues, and it's really sad all the trouble they go through just to try to move around later on in life. I have one with cancer right now, and it's not operable. The vet asked if I wanted to know how long he has and my answer was "don't tell me." I just want to make things as normal and easy for him as I can before he goes. It's tough to see a dog that could sprint and fly over the fence with ease have trouble going up and down the stairs now. Yet he pushes on I always think about him now when dealing with troubles in my life and say to myself "he has terminal cancer, what the hell is my excuse?" It puts things in perspective. I'm glad you managed to learn something from this awful exeprience, and if trophies aren't in your future anymore, then so be it. It's a great lesson for people to realize what has true value in their lives, and thank you for sharing this experience. Best of luck getting through this difficult time. Edited November 15, 2021 by kinnyman 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
torchicgal Posted November 16, 2021 Share Posted November 16, 2021 So sorry for your loss : ( my dog sadly had to be put down late October this year, so I know how you feel-I also have BPD and it gets really rough. So far I think the grieving process for me is very different than how it would be if I were there (I'm away at college), and I'm thankful for that but also devasted that I wasn't there for him in his final moments. When I grew up with him I feel like I didn't pay him enough attention, and I feel so horrible thinking about all of the things I could've done. It's hard, but I know it was his time and he was suffering. He had just turned 8 and had been suffering from congestive heart failure for several years now. It progressed very fast to the point where he could not breathe when lying down, and would hardly walk. However, he survived much longer than the vet expected, and even in his final days he was smiling and trying to push on. Such a trooper. It's made me realize to really not take the people/animals around you for granted, as you were saying. The hours I spent playing games could've been spent with him, and knowing that makes me want to avoid games altogether. However I know this is just part of the grieving process and it will pass, but either way- it's so hard. Here's a pic of my baby, hopefully he and yours are up in doggie heaven :,) Spoiler 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted November 16, 2021 Share Posted November 16, 2021 as a child, my father argued with a neighbor and in retaliation he poisoned my dog. a few years later my parrot was stolen from me. I have never had a pet since then. I'm sorry for your loss. I wish I had the opportunity to live with my pets in the natural course of things, and watching them age and die would have been less painful (parrots can live a century, I probably wouldn't see mine die). as for trophy hunting, i feel like i'm addicted. I have important tasks, deadlines, studies, but the video game ends up being a way of procrastination, and I "need to progress my backlog". I would like to go away indefinitely until I get my shit together, but at the same time I can't. please feel the grief, it is necessary for your healing. death is part of life, and in time it will be less painful for you. stay well Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Z1MZUM Posted November 16, 2021 Share Posted November 16, 2021 (edited) I miss my little companion and friend, My cat called poops. I lost her this year on "Australia day" and it still hurts to this day. My little girl was with me close to 20 years. Edited November 16, 2021 by Z1MZUM 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MidnightDragon Posted November 21, 2021 Share Posted November 21, 2021 We had to put my 16 year old dog Wei Wei to sleep two weeks ago due to a stroke. We miss you girl! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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