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Mellenthin

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Greetings, 

 

Most likely the vast majority reading this don't know of me - and most likely never will - however, I feel compelled to write this nonetheless. If not just for my own sake but for those who are or will eventually fall into the same pitfall as I have.

 

Whilst it's true that I'm writing this intoxicated, it's equally true I would never have done so whilst sober. Meaning, I have some words to say and some of you better listen.

 

This isn't forwarded to those who have a healthy relationship to gaming in general, but to those where gaming have become an outlet for everything you despise in society.

 

In short - whatever you seek in gaming that you cannot find otherwise - there's no respite, there's no tranquility to be found - absolutely no one will help you except for yourself, even less understand you. I've tried it first hand and it has only led me deeper into the pits of despair.

 

I really don't care whether you're high or low on any leaderboards, or if you're even able to acknowledge your own addiction, but as I mentioned, the important part - as I feel it - is to make others aware.

 

I've been gaming my whole life and I've probably been on my current path since early childhood. I basically have no issues being as transparent as I am as honesty is one of the virtues I value the most.

 

What I try to convey to those who try and seek solace in gaming for whatever reason, don't do it. In the best of circumstances, you will only prolong the inevitable. I think you realize this deep inside.

 

To the mods who will likely get alerted to the thread one way or another, let it be known that I'm absolutely serious. I'm not typing this in order to entertain myself or others, but to write myself another chapter - and hopefully others as well.

 

Thank you for your time!

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8 minutes ago, Mellenthin said:

Whilst it's true that I'm writing this intoxicated, it's equally true I would never done so whilst sober. Meaning, I have some words to say and some of you better listen.

I knew I was in for an interesting read the moment I passed this bit here. 😄 Thank you for this post.

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Yes, booze basically makes everything more interesting - personal meltdowns included.😉

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I mean.

Media consumption is for escapism for the most part. People need an outlet for their frustrations and a relaxer from time to time. Sure, you're going to find people who over consume or put way too much effort into it. But I'd assume the vast majority of games are somewhere between very casual and 'hardcore', whatever that means these days. Even among achievement hunters who are in pretty deep, there's a level of balance or a motivation outside of pure escapism (Hakoom, for example, was supposedly making damn good money from his escapism). If it counts as addiction is different from person to person.

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On 1/14/2022 at 1:19 PM, Mellenthin said:

What I try to convey to those who try and seek solace in gaming for whatever reason, don't do it. In the best of circumstances, you will only prolong the inevitable. I think you realize this deep inside.

 

There may be some truth to this; however, is it me or had this maxim grown over the years?

 

I used to spend thousands of hours on my NES and SNES as a form of comfort and entertainment without the cost of frustration or other negative impacts but as gaming has evolved it has been much less so. I first noticed this paradox with the arcade fighting game scene, then to online shooters (*ahem, SOCOM), gaming becoming mainstream and lastly trophy hunting. I suppose it could be the stressors I have now are much different than when I was a kid. I do know this much, I cannot play games anymore when I am upset or stressed out...it's a pretty counter-productive experience.

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On 15/01/2022 at 6:17 PM, Jelly Soup said:

I mean.

Media consumption is for escapism for the most part. People need an outlet for their frustrations and a relaxer from time to time. Sure, you're going to find people who over consume or put way too much effort into it. But I'd assume the vast majority of games are somewhere between very casual and 'hardcore', whatever that means these days. Even among achievement hunters who are in pretty deep, there's a level of balance or a motivation outside of pure escapism (Hakoom, for example, was supposedly making damn good money from his escapism). If it counts as addiction is different from person to person.

 

People definitely need an outlet. I've just taken it too far, unfortunately turning it into a source of anxiety instead. As embarrassing as talking about this is, I don't regret it.

 

I'm hardly planning to drag this on much further, but I do think it's healthy to have these kind of topics every now and then if only for the sole reason to show that there's a potential downside to this hobby.

 

On 15/01/2022 at 11:41 PM, pathtoninja said:

 

There may be some truth to this; however, is it me or had this maxim grown over the years?

 

I used to spend thousands of hours on my NES and SNES as a form of comfort and entertainment without the cost of frustration or other negative impacts but as gaming has evolved it has been much less so. I first noticed this paradox with the arcade fighting game scene, then to online shooters (*ahem, SOCOM), gaming becoming mainstream and lastly trophy hunting. I suppose it could be the stressors I have now are much different than when I was a kid. I do know this much, I cannot play games anymore when I am upset or stressed out...it's a pretty counter-productive experience.

 

I vividly remember making lists in alphabetical order of completed NES and SNES games as a kid, and much of that kind of behaviour is well and alive to this day - nothing that helps, that much I can tell you.😏

 

Regardless, gaming back then was genuinely about having fun. Just like how I enjoyed playing soccer in school with my mates, it stopped being fun in highschool the moment I joined a team where the prime focus was to win.

 

Perhaps not the best comparison, but I know for sure that whenever I think back of boosting sessions and multiplayer in general, for every year I spent on my profile, the more it evolved about trophies primarily and less about having fun.

 

So, I perfectly know what went wrong and what I need to change and focus on. It's just hard to make said change when you basically have no other hobby to occupy your time with and doing a complete 360 in terms how you've approached games in the past.

 

First world problem, I know...😆

 

Anyway, thanks for your input guys!🙂

 

 

 

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